motivation, yes ...
at certain times in my life I feel really
very, very, very, very, very, very discouraged.
And I feel also very very very very depressed
And the rest will 'also happened
to you to find in a small room in an embankment 60 meters depth '
and feel demotivated and depressed.
(eelst "The saga of sorrow")
Here, demotivated is how I feel now. I'm tired and angry but anger of empty, useless. My life goes on normally means a good friendship, good health, good love, how would the horoscope. The work ... that is still sporadic but something is there. I mean I should not have anything to complain if I have these things. If a person were to "look only to your backyard" in my condition could not help but be happy.
But no. Because unfortunately I can not just look at my garden. I can not think only for the present only to my present.
I watch TV to escape, I just comb through even the most crumpled rag gossipparo and boogers in the waiting room the doctor to get on my nerves.
And while I'm so pissed I pass in front of the faces of Friends, X Factor and Big Brother house. People who do hours and hours on end for an audition, and I, I never studied the laws in my life, I arrabatto to study laws and decrees to place on the list to a public competition and thus have a better chance of a temporary post for three years. And then I pissed even more. And I demotic.
It seems to me that the world is moving, is rotating, all is leading to a global stoned. The school, the media, everything is this: stoned to even more people to brutalize, to make it even more stupid so that it can do and believe what the evil dwarf of the moment is jabbering.
I remember a movie I saw recently: Idiocracy.
To see the flyer and read the plot seems a crazy film. It really is not true. If you have not seen I suggest you see it.
